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Friday, October 28, 2016

It's Personal this Time

The last time I was on this journey I felt so free about sharing my every thought about the process.  Good or bad I let it all hang out, and it was freeing.  This time I feel inhibited.  I don't know why everything seems so personal this time.

Maybe it is because I feel like I am constantly fighting the urge to go and binge my way through Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas.  Maybe it is because I am fearful that I will fail and there is so much at stake.  Maybe because I am a mom now, and the worries of pre-mommy me seem like a cake walk in comparison to my worries now.  Or maybe I am more sensitive about what others think/say about me.  What I do know is that I am down 21.2 pounds as of Tuesday.

 

Can you see the difference?  Me neither, lol!  But I am moving a lot easier, and I feel better.  So I guess I am still winning.  Here is my first picture for comparison.


Johanna turned 2 last week, and my family came in to town from California.  We had a wonderful weekend despite having to cancel Johanna's birthday celebration and party a little less hearty since she had a fever all weekend and a virus.  She is finally feeling better, so I have some pictures to share of her Birthday Dinner with my family.


She sang "Happy Birthday" to herself!


Daddy helped her blow out the candle.


And proved it is always a good time to eat cake and ice cream (even if your sick)!