Focus

Staying focused is hard.  Yesterday I started my day perfectly, and then I had two lunch meetings, and was starving by 2:30 when I could finally have lunch.  The thought ran through my head, "I have tortilla chips and cheese.  I could have nachos."  Ugh, I wish that I could blink and my brain would be reprogrammed.  So I patiently waited for my quinoa to cook and had a strange combination of quinoa (complex carb), cottage cheese (protein), and sliced tomato.  I must have been starving because that was an extremely satisfying lunch.  I was so glad to have food in my tummy.

I stepped on the scale this morning and am down another pound.  Do a happy dance! I am really noticing a change in my energy levels.  Normally by 9:00 PM I am falling asleep in my chair.  Last night at 8:00 PM I decided I wanted to get out of the house, so we went to my in laws hot tub.  I NEVER do stuff like that.  I am a homebody especially when it comes to putting on a swimming suit.  It is nice to have energy left at the end of the day.

I went for a walk on Wednesday with my sister in law, Tiffany and her 2 girls and dog.  I wasn't dying by the time we made it to the park, and my back wasn't going to fall off.  Normally I am drenched in sweat from trying to combat the pain from my back and trying to keep up with my companions. Now the girls did run home (I refrained...), but I felt like a really accomplished something.  I went for a walk after work.  I didn't just stay sedentary on the couch.  THIS IS HUGE!!  Tiffany - thanks for encouraging me to get moving!

I am really proud of my husband through all of this.  He is really trying to be a support to me.  For those of you who know Beau know that he is a picky eater.  In fact he considers himself a "meatarian" because he is against the cruel ways that vegetables are harvested.  No really.  These are the hilarious things that come out of his mouth.  He could live off of bacon cheeseburgers and chicken strips if I let him.  I was really nervous that he would not be very supportive of my changes because of how they would impact him, but he has been great!  He hasn't complained about all the fruits and veggies in the house, or the fact that I haven't baked one cookie in a few weeks.  He has even chosen to skip dessert so I don't have to feel sad about missing out.  Now I won't say that he doesn't have his moments of weakness or despair at the healthy changes in our home, but he is really trying to be supportive.  Last night when I told him I wanted to go out he was shocked and elated that I wasn't being a homebody.  He has been vocal about his enthusiasm for my success.  He is not ready to commit to his own personal change right now, but that is okay because he is committed to supporting me through my change.  No, he hasn't asked me to do this.  In fact he has told me on more than one occasion that he loves me just the way I am.  But he knows that I am not happy with the way things are, so he is doing everything he can to help me.  I love this guy so much!

I think we make a pretty cute couple!  This picture was taken a month ago at our family reunion.  It is really hard to get a natural picture with both of us smiling, but this one worked!  I feel so blessed to be married to such an amazing man.   I have loved every minute of the last 6 years, and look forward to forever!