Since I have gotten home from Utah I have become the "Excuse Queen." I have in fact been avoiding another post because how do I admit to faltering. I could tell you why I have allowed myself a set back, but all I can think of this guy I used to work with and what he used to say about excuses. Sorry this is vulgar, but:
Excuses are like butt holes. We all got 'em and they all stink!
I called my mom on Monday and had my pity party. I lamented over the Oregon rain and the cold outside. I complained about my commute and only having one car. I whined about wanting a bigger house with 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. My mom attempted to console me, and then finally told me to snap out of it. It doesn't matter what I have or what is going on in my life. The choice to be happy now is my choice. I live in Oregon - it is going to rain... a lot! I may only have one car, but I do not have a car payment! I may have a small house, but I also pay less rent because of my small home. Life is good. Enjoy the Journey. Stop whining and making excuses!
So here comes the confession:
I have not been planing meals since I got home, and have not been careful. It is very important for me to define a plan and stick to it because once I start allowing for "treats" it is a slippery slope to totally giving up. Been there. Done that. I don't need the T-shirt! So no more moon pies, pizza, chalupas, or ice cream. I am going to plan out my meals, and go back to wholesome food choices. Set backs are allowed if I learn something from them. I have taken what I needed out of this one, and am ready to press forward. Fortunately this set back was just 1 pound increase. I have lost a total of 11 pounds (I know I need to stop stepping on the scale!!).
I am excited because I think I am ready to add in exercise. I am "storing" my in laws elliptical machine in my home office, and I look at it everyday collecting dust. I actually really enjoy the elliptical (most days). It is easy on my knees and is kind of fun with some good music.
As I sit here writing this post, Florence + the Machine's "Shake it Out" came on, and I think lyrics explain how I am feeling.
Shake it out, shake it out,
shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out,
shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa
I may be down, but I am not out. I am present. I am pressing forward. I am moving on. I am shaking it out!
That's a great song to look to! So today while we're walking the dog we'll talk about meal plans again, k? And then revisit on Saturday when we see what we actually get to bring home from Bountiful Baskets.
ReplyDeleteThanks Tif for getting me to go on a walk yesterday (rain and all...)! You have been a great support to me! I really appreciate your positive influence :)
DeleteI think you are brave to admit to yourself what the problem is. Changing eating habits is hard. Is I decided that if you can do it do can I. I commit to no sweet snacks tomorrow and a walk at lunch. One day at a time. Lol. Keep writing. I enjoy reading the posts.
ReplyDeleteI have to take it one day at a time too! I think that making a few changes to my routine is the first big step in moving forward! You can do it!
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